updates

Nothing has change since my last blog, I went to my doctors apt on Monday hoping to get my membranes stripped to speed things along but after the doctor checked my cervix she said things are still pretty tight down town, and that she wouldn't be able to even get in to strip the membranes. So slightly disappointed I set up an appointment for this Friday to see if I am dilated more by then. I am hoping that I am because I have an inducement date for Monday still and I probably wont keep it if I am not further along. My doctor will be leaving out of town for a week on my actual due date so she wants to get this baby out of me before she leaves. I told her that I was fine having someone else deliver the baby if I needed because I really don't want to be induced and then have things go wrong and have to have an emergency C section. When I had my gallbladder taken out I want to say I was super strong and wasn't afraid but when they wheeled me into the OR with the freezing temps, clinking metals and bright bright lights on me I freaked a little and I really don't want my labor to be like that. I know that really its in the lords hands but if I can avoid it I will. If I am not dilated more on Friday we will move the inducement date to next Wednesday, and Ill get checked on Monday. Thats about it for an update.
  I am getting more and more ready for this little girl to come, Amanda invited me to join her and her friend Melanie swimming at the legacy center on Monday, which helped a lot! I have been contracting hard since the doc appointment, then yesterday she and I went to the university mall and ate at PF Changs and walked the mall.  It was really fun. Today I got up off my lazy tush and make BJ orange rolls for breakfast, took a nap and then got right to work cleaning my apartment. I was hoping to keep the contractions going strong but its been pretty calm today which I HATE!! slash like the break. So torn! haha jk. Im going to jump in the shower and then wait for BJ to get home and then its off to Amanda's for dinner and Cards!! Today has been a good day. Heres to wishing for more good days and more contractions!

New News

Since my last blog I have changed a few things, I switched doctors. Crazy I know, at 36 weeks who does that?? BJ took me out for date night at Outback, before that I had been contracting the whole day and the day before so during dinner it didn't really catch my attention that i was contracting so often. But as the evening wore on they got more intense and more frequent. I mentioned it to BJ and he started to time them. I was contracting every 8 min. I didn't really feel like I was going into labor, but as I laoded my big bum into the truck I had one that took my breath away. I feel like i handle the contractions pretty well, they aren't comfortable and you can't really ignore them but I don't stop traffic every time I have one. The one I had in truck ripped through me, up through my back and in my belly. I had NEVER had one like that. So BJ and I decided to just go to the hospital and be on the safe side. So off we went and checked in and the nurse hooked me up to monitors. She asked me a bunch of questions and I decided to tell her about how hard of a time I was having with enjoying my pregnancy and that I had tried talking to my doctor about how hard it was for me every day to just get up and get ready, I explained that he didn't really acknowledge my admission and so I just dealt with it myself. The nurse was really great and suggested that I switch doctors. I really didn't want to switch doctors because I do not like hurting peoples feelings, believe it or not... and the doctor that the nurse was suggesting was a doctor that worked in the same office as doctor Dinger. The more we talked about it though BJ and I decided that it might just be the best thing.

   The nurse told me I was just having braxton hicks and that my cervix was still closed :/ I was super bummed. She sent in a social worker to talk with me to make sure I was suicidal (I felt so stupid!) after he decided I wasn't a hazard to myself and my child, we were set home. I felt slightly stupid for going to the hospital cause I didn't want to be one of those girls who at every bump I freaked out but Im really glad that I did because the next day I called and cancelled my apt with Doctor Dinger and set one up with Doctor Twelves, the following Monday I went to my apt and Loved her! She asked questions and listened and helped me figure out things that my other doctor just brushed off. I will now got an IUD, and start an anti depressant right after the birth just to be on the safe side. She had my blood drawn to see if I was low on anything. Two days later her nurse called me and let me know how everything turned out, I was very low on Vitamin D. I was so impressed that she had someone call me and let me know. my other doctor never called me or let me know how things were going. I had to have my sister make a list of things for me to ask him because I didn't know what I should know by now.  So I now have a new Doctor and I am really happy. She  also asked me if I would like to be induced. On Monday we set the date of February 7th. So if I am not dilated anymore we will wait but if I am then Carla will be coming then. :)

 I HATE pictures of me right now but I will post this for everyone else so they can feel better about yourselves.

       37 weeks 4 days.

Just a few things

    I wont give excuses for my lack of blogging, its just not my thing to do it all the time. I figure that I would keep everyone updated before the baby comes since I enjoy reading my cousin's blog and my sister's and a couple of friends. I am almost 36 weeks along, wahoo! I asked my doctor a few appts back if he thought I could go early and he replied sadly with a very solid, NO. :/ So it looks like February  11th is the soonest this mama will be going into labor. I also asked him how far after my due date he would let me go and he said a week, which i took as better news then two weeks.
    I've been slowly getting things ready for her here. We got our crib for free from BJ's boss who said he and his wife were done. SCORE!! They also gave us the mattress! So the crib is taken care of, CHECK!

    I found the bumper at IKEA for $12. I like that its just plain white so it will go along with any blanket I put in there. I still am trying to figure out how to put it on though, its really long??
    After we had the crib I started looking for a dresser on KSL. That was an interesting job. Most dressers are old dressers like ones from when I was a child, and they are still selling for around $40-$50. So last Saturday BJ took me to IKEA and said I could buy a dresser there. It was SOOO nice! cause we don't have a lot of money and he has been pushing us to save money by buying online. After much shopping and looking we decided to get this SUPER cute book shelf that we turned on its side. It was $69! and it can be used for other things after the baby doesn't need it. (that was my argument for BJ :) Anyway we came home and put it together and I had so much fun putting stuff away!!

                                   Those are my new burp rags Amanda made me. :) Super cute huh!

   As I put her little pants and tights away I started to get excited a little to play dress up, haha Its like grown up Barbies.. all the time! The worst thing I did though was pull out one of the newborn diapers hehehe seriously! take a looksee

                                                                      SOOOO little!!

   So all of the big things are taken care of, well except a recliner but hopefully that will come along some time soon. I have obtained things from my sister and Target as well like shampoo and baby wash, wash cloths, desitine, a breast pump, hair clips and flowers. My cousin, Steph bought her a pair of cowgirl boots which are perfect! Well I will post hopefully more one more time before I have her and tell you more about what we are up to but for now I have to go. BJ has to drive out to Tooele for work and I get to go with him since its after work hours and he probably wont get home till close to 9 or 10. I wouldn't get to see him all day if I didn't. :(
but I will leave you with my last baby/ old dinning room picture...

Suprise!

       So after much stalking I realized that some people have new post up almost everyday! I can't for the life of me thing of something entertaining to write about EVERY day but I can do my best. Today is a good day. I'm feeling well enough that I got out of the apartment by noon, where I then met up with my Hot hubby for lunch at the elegant McDonald.(Not my choice) We then went into the Walmart across the street to pick up drinks for my sister Melissa's bridal shower, which is tomorrow. I am currently at Amanda's house goofing off with her and her neighbor Melanie. Tonight BJ and I are babysitting for his sister Mandy from 9 to 7. Fun huh? yeah it was my list topper for a Friday night :)
  Today I am 26 weeks. 98 days to go! wahoo!! My sister is also throwing me a Baby shower as well. Super woman? I think so. My shower will be November 20th at her house. she made THE cutest invitations and is going through way more work then she needs to to put this on but I'm excited. Everyone has said to not buy anything till the shower but in all honesty I think I'm going to go crazy if I don't get at least somethings ready. I have not bought anything for my little girl and I'm going crazy. Its been kinda easy cause we are poor as dirt but I am not one who likes to put things like this off... homework, dishes, laundry sure but I don't even have a Binky or diapers. My mom did however buy me my first blanket. Its perfect too. I've been told that I am picking when it comes to styles for her but I just really don't want tacky pink filly foo foo stuff with jumping sheep and kitty cats rolling yarn around. The blanket was a raggedy Anne and Andy blanket in blues and reds. Don't get me wrong I like pink, in fact In high school while my parents were out of town I painted my room bright pink but I don't want too much.. and trust me there can be too much. :)
   The other day I had another doctors appointment that I didn't write about. It was right after BJ and I flew back into town from Boise. We got another ultrasound to double check somethings that they didn't get on the first one, We got to see the Labia pronounced in all her glory. This may sound weird but it was soo cute! We got a better picture of her cute feet, a profile and a cute one of her face. Things like that help to make me more excited about this. I am truly grateful for my health at this point, I know that I want more than one child so I will have to do thins all over again but for now I am just happy to get out of bed!
  BJ's job is going well, I know I haven't written much about BJ so here is a little bit of what he is up to. He took this job down in Utah in March. We moved down the beginning of April and he has been enjoying it ever since. The job here requires less manual work, which I think at first he missed getting his hands dirty but then as the days went by he realize how much more energy he had at the end of the day to hang out and play. He actually acts like a 29 year old instead of an 80 year old man ;) He is Jared's (his bro-n-law) assistant so whatever Jared can find for him to do BJ does it. Its a good job for now and its nice security. I'm not sure what BJ plans to do in the future, he had talked about going back to school so we'll see.
   BJ is really excited about baby girl. After work he comes home and hops on the bed with me and will talk to her or just watch sports center and rub my tummy waiting for her to kick at him. I never saw BJ as the type to do all of that so it makes me giggle when he does. When I was sick at the begging he would tell the baby to be nice to me. haha silly BJ.
anyway there is a little more in depth post about BJ and I and what we have been up to.

Skimming the Surface

I know that i haven't done a great job keeping up with my blog and i swore i'd do a better job of keeping up if i started one but i have to be honest I've avoided writing because I've had a hard time trying to find things to be happy about. I've decided i will write about everything that has gone on and put the happiest twist on it i can :)
I had my surgery, and it went well. very well, My stitches healed within the month and only one gave me trouble and even then None of them are as big as the picture I posted. The inside healing wasn't bad either, my abs were sore for about 5 days but after that I could get about pretty easily. It did not however fix my morning sickness. I will be 26 weeks tomorrow and I still have it. I threw up the peach Jello I made for BJ and I for movie night last night. I'll tell you on thing, I will not miss pregnancy!! It has been THE hardest physical experience I've EVER had to go through. It has however been the greatest blessing for BJ and I and relying on each other. Our relationship has grown threw every rough or tough time as we've learned to communicate and understand where the other person is at, because although I feel like I'd rather be dead and it's "so hard" for me, I have realized that it is equally as hard for BJ in other ways. He lives with the devil almost 24/7 ha and he doesn't snap back or tell me to suck it up, he just rubs my back and asks what he can do even though every time I say "nothing" and start crying. I'm ridiculous!
The week following the surgery BJ and I got to find out the sex of the baby. That would have been week 19. My parents came down from Idaho for the ultra sound. We could only have a small amount of people in the room because it was so small so besides BJ my parents also got to go in. My sister Amanda Cody and Cade had to wait outside, but I appreciated her being there for support and at the end I asked if we could switch out my dad for her so she could see too. So in the end everyone got to see.. Our little Girl. :) They had a hard time finding the her sex because she had her knees sealed shut :) thats my little lady. It has taken me awhile to feel connected to her and I felt really guilty about not caring about the sex or about really anything that had to do with her. I think I blamed how I felt on her and if it wasn't for her I would be up and about living life like I had before she came along. I since then have started to feel a little better and have been able to enjoy her more.
BJ and I went up to Nampa for Halloween. It was grandpa Bryce's 80th birthday so there was a lot of family hoopla going on and the weekend was a very nice getaway. We got to spend some time with my parents and I got to do my moms hair. The poor lady hasn't had her hair done since right before BJ and I got married in Feb. haha It was nice to actually be able to do hair again, I forgot how much I love what I do.
Next week BJ and I get to fly out to Portland for my family's Thanksgiving. Every year we go out to rock away beach to go crabbing and clamming and we rent out a restaurant on the port and have Thanksgiving. Its the best!! I really hope that I can enjoy myself and not be too sick. On the flight to Boise last weekend I threw up on the plane, not too fun. So anyway I'm getting excited for the up coming months! They will be busy and hopefully filled with loads of fun.
I will try to do better on keeping up with everything so that its more up to date and I can have more detail instead of just skimming the surface.

Gallbladder Drama

  Alrighty, I am now officially 18 weeks along in my pregnancy. I was hoping by now my morning sickness would be gone or only on occasion, but I haven't been able to tell with my other side effects. About two weeks ago I started having some gas problems, i chalked it up to not having regular bowl movements for most of this pregnancy. I was awaken the first time at about 2 in the morning with such intense pain under my rib cage that i woke up BJ and begged him to go to the store and get gas-x or some type of gas relief medicine. Poor BJ, off he went at three in the morning to walmart to buy me gas meds. the pain eventually subsided and I fell back to sleep an hour or so later.

Over the next couple of days I didn't have any problems except during the night. I thought it was gas so I would take an anti-acid and "tough it out", till last Friday night. The pain started at about 11:00 pm and i took my gas-x and braced myself to tough it out for the night. BJ turned off the light at about 12:15 am and fell asleep. I steadied my breathing and waited for the pain to subside. About an hour later the pain had not subsided but my tolerance had completely gone out the window, I was now whimpering and breathing a little harder but still trying to keep it down and not wake up BJ. But BJ finally woke up and asked if he could help, and that is such a tough question cause really there isn't anything he can do... but take a pillow and put me out of my misery. I just started to cry harder and said no. I decided to go out on the couch because by then my self wallow mode was on full throttle and I was now crying about everything bad thing that had ever happened to me in my entire life and I was sure God was punishing me. The pain wasn't so bad when i was crying that hard. but when i stopped to breath it would all come back ten fold. that pathetic scene lasted for about a half hour till BJ came out and laid on the couch with me and asked if I wanted to go to the hospital, which only made me cry harder?? don't ask why? I said no, I didn't want to go to the ER only to be told its just gas, I feel like I've already had so many other things go wrong with this pregnancy I didn't want to look like a big baby. So BJ went back into the room and started to look what it might be online. We read a couple things and decided to take Tylenol, but the more we read, the more I cried. BJ finally said he was taking me to the ER. He started dressing me haha cause he was so tired of listening to me cry about my pain.

  

  The drive to the Hospital took forever!!!! when we finally got there they signed us in and started to do test on me. They did all the normal test and asked what was wrong. I told them all my symptoms and that I was pregnant. They lead me to a room and told me they were going to take blood, hook an iv and check my baby's heart rate, then send me over to get an ultra sound on my abdomen. The nurse came in and was really nice. I know she was only being nice and making small talk, but she walked in and asked me if I had ever had an IV before... my first thought was.. nope.. never...but when your in a lot of pain sarcasm isn't first on hand.. so I nicely replied yes, I've had many especially over the last three months. Pick a vain any vain, they are all marked out. After they took the blood and hooked up the IV, another nurse came in to hear the heart beat. She globbed so much of the ultra sound goo on me it still makes me giggle thinking about it, when she found the heart beat it had dropped a little from the last time... so for any of you that believe boys have low heart rates.. my baby's heart rate was 140. :) But we'll find that out next week.

     Next they wheeled me into the ultra sound room where they had warm blankets and socks! The Lady wasn't super talkative, but then again it was about 4 in the morning by then. She took a look around and took pictures for about a half hour and then sent me back to my room. BJ and I waited about an hour till the doctor came back in and said I had two gallstones. lovely. I was almost relieved that it was something so BJ didn't thing I was making the pain up, but then I realized that I was stuck with the pain. He then went over how someone gets stones and the next course of action. He referred us to a surgeon at Alta View in sandy and gave me a few prescriptions.  By the time BJ and I left it was 5:30. Poor BJ had to be to work in less then two hours. We went home and I slept Most of the rest of the day. 

                                                     

   BJ got me an appointment with the surgeon on Tuesday. He went over all the pros and cons of having the surgery and what life will be like after the surgery if I go ahead with it. now I know your saying whats the problem here... well I'm pregnant remember..  I asked what the risks entailed and he said that the risks were actually higher for me not to have the surgery. In the first trimester they would have been concerned about the fetus growth and if the medications to put me under could/would effect the baby's health, and in the third trimester the risks are really high because if I have an attack it could possibly send me into labor causing a premature birth for my baby and all the side effects that go along with that. In the 2nd trimester I'm just growing the baby. So yes it is risky, any surgery is, Its will just be less of a risk for the baby at this point in the pregnancy. The doctor scheduled me for surgery this up coming Monday at 6:30 am. I'm very nervous but I am hoping that with this surgery I'll be able to start feeling a little better.

These are what the scars will look like :(  Wish me luck?