God made dirt SO dirt don't hurt?

We have a little problem in our house. For those of you that know me I am NOT a germaphobe! I am not afraid to pick a cracker up off the floor and give it right back to Carli without EVEN blowing it off or whatever your suppose to do for that situation... sooooo when I caught Carli eating dirt out of my plant I just laughed and cleaned her up. BJ brought up a good point though.... it has little white things in it like such...

I don't know what it is, and as you can see that I'm not too terribly concerned cause I could be Googling it right now instead of blogging but BJ said it could be to a chemical to help plants grow that isn't ok for Carli to digest so sadly I had to get after her today when she would stop by the plant for a little snack. She looked so sad when I slapped at her hand and didn't understand why I was talking to her like that.... man I hate being the parent! Being the aunt was so much easier. But here is a funny picture of when I caught her the second time.

haha I LOVE HER!!!!

Pics of Car Car

 Mornings with daddy! I love this picture because they both have sleepy faces!

Carli loves just being next to BJ. If he leaves she will either haul crawl after him or cry. so cute!

Our Pumpkins:)  BJ made a bear because his nickname for Carli is Bear. She huffs and puffs all over the house growling and grunting. funniest thing ever. I'm lame and just made an M for Millar

My little Ducky!!

Helping dad with laundrykisses for daddy :)

RRRRAR!

Catchin up

I was offered/recommend a job at the beginning of the year to manage a storage unit. It was just talk for the longest time but just recently they have broken ground and started building. The facility will now be opening for business around January! I can't believe how fast it has happened. This opportunity will be just what BJ and I need. If I get this job from what i'm told, I will be able to manage this storage unit during the day while living above the office in an apartment. I would be able to have Carli play on the floor while I do computer work and greet people. Perfect Right!! I know. I was advised to turn in my resume and apply online at a storage unit site this last week so apply I do. I'm soooo excited for this because along with being able to work from home my income would be able to pay for BJ and I's bills if we continue to save like we are and all of BJ's income would go into savings so hopefully one day we will be able to buy a house free and clear. (we would work the storage unit along time ;) So with all these perks you can see why I am so excited! Im also really sad because I have made some really awesome friend in my ward here in Pleasant Grove. I haven't told a lot of other people about this change because BJ and I don't people in the ward to brush us off because we wont be here that long and I'm glad we decided to do that because the other day I received a phone call from the storage unit, they gave me a phone interview and told me that if they were interested they would have another person call me to set up a second interview. I felt like I was qualified to work this job because I have a lot of experience in costumer service and managing my time. I know I am not book smart but you could but ANY person in front of me and I can make them feel comfortable and important not that I need to sell myself to you all but I got off the phone feeling very... below average. :/  Not the best feeling let me tell you, I was also nervous that we wouldn't be getting the storage unit after all even though BJ's boss owns it and told us it was ours. I tend to put my eggs in one basket... yeah its a good trait i know...but BJ has really helped me with that so after the phone call I was disappointed I'll be ok if we do not get the storage unit, sad but OK.
**side note real fast, I just checked my email and I did not get the storage unit job. I lied I'm really disappointed.

The 6 B's

1. 1. Be grateful.-  I am so grateful for my family! I had a difficult pregnancy, but I have the most amazing baby in the entire world! Carli is my everything! I don't know what I did without her in my life?? I live for her smile, her laugh even her stinky diapers! 
2. BJ. oh BJ. He is my rock. I know you are probably thinking that BJ should be my everything, my reason for living like Carli, but I'm being honest here, He is my partner, my equal. I lived 22 years without him just fine but he brings so much more to my life! He rounds my edges, matures me, pushes and challenges me. Without him I wouldn't be the person I am today. (and I wouldn't have my Car Car)
3. 2. Be smart.: In my life I haven't always made the best decisions. I have hurt feelings, back stabbed, gossiped and lied. Not necessarily something I'm proud of but I'm getting SMARTER. At least I hope so. From all those awful dramatic situations I have been able to learn valuable lessons on what I should and shouldn't do with certain information. 
4. I went to hair school back in 2005. Something that I wasn't 100% sure I wanted to do for the rest of my life but after a couple months I caught on really fast and fell in love with it. The art, technique, the chemistry it all intrigued me. Most of all I love the interaction with others, hearing their stories and struggles. I am so grateful for Heavenly Father for guiding me to this profession!
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6. 3. Be clean. :I try to bathe daily but its really hard!
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8. 4. Be true. :I have always been a people pleaser, something I don't know if I love or hate about myself. I would love to just not care what people think about me, but I also think that heavenly Father gives us that trait so that we don't deviate too far from the course. I am very excited to go through the temple. That is something that I have not been true to myself about. If I could go back and change anything in my life I wouldn't be so timid about the gospel, about how I feel about the gospel. I have friends (you know who you are) who have always been there for me even though they don't have an interest in the LDS religion. They have watched me be untrue to my faith, I hate that. If there is something that I will continually be working on its being true to myself.
9. 5. Be humble. : I've learned that you can never just relax in life. Life is continuing humbling me. I know those close to me are about sick and tired of me whining about how hard my pregnancy was but you know I am extremely grateful for how hard and challenging it was. It was so humbling! I had to rely on others to helps me, mostly my husband and sister Amanda. For those of you who don't know me too well, I like to do things my way and I DON'T need your opinions either! :) I know that's the kind of person you All are looking for in a best friend but sadly/luckly I've toned it down a touch.  ;)
10. 6. Be prayerful. : I am not going to say much on this because I will never be good enough at this. but I am grateful for the open door!

OK OK so I hope I didn't come across as the holier then thou type but I enjoyed this a lot! It was a nice reminder of all I have to be grateful for. I encourage you all to maybe just think about these six things and remember everything we have to be grateful for. 

Carli Layne Millar

  Wow, I warned you all how amazing I am at this, with that being said let me catch you up. I had the baby. ha.SURPRISE!! We named her Carli Layne Millar. She was 8 pounds 1oz, 20in, born at 10:02 am on February 16, 2011. 

   The night of the 15th Trevor and April, (BJ's younger brother and wife) took us to a fun little mexican restaurant in Draper, something to take my mind off going on my 5th day over my due date. We were enjoying a nice evening out while I was quietly timing my contractions. I know, real tactful but I was so ready to get her out. I told BJ as we were leaving that I thought I was starting real labor. We returned home, did our usual night routine and climbed into bed. I timed five min apart till about 3:00 am, at that point I was so tired of dealing with the contractions, not sleeping and the pain was growing more intense with every hour. I had started to walk around the apartment (all 700 sq ft) at midnight. I finally woke Bj up, said it was time for my epidural and off we went. 
  Once checked in and hooked up we had to wait an hour and a half to see if they would admit me. (about 4-6:00 am) This was a very fun time.. no actually it wasn't, just kidding. The nurse came to check me and I was only dilated to a 3. (what I started at an hour before) It was looking like they were going to send me home. 
 A half hour later the on call doctor came in to take a look and talk with BJ and I about the progress or lack thereof. He was very nice, said I could probably go home and labor more on my own but the baby's heart beat was dipping significantly with every contraction so he wanted to admit me to keep an eye on it. So happy. Next question, sooo when can I get my epidural? I'm a pansy, I'm ok with that. 
  At 8:00 am I was check in, drugged up, water broken and sleeping peacefully, the way all labors should go if you ask me. The doctor came in at 9:00 am, said that I needed to have a C section. YEAH!? Thats what I was thinking, a little rash, maybe uncalled for?? I don't know. I said, Wait wait wait, seriously? No! I will labor for longer and do this naturally. (I didn't wait 5 days after my due date to have her C sectioned anyway.) I started crying, hysterically, embarrassingly. They prepped me, gave me more drugs, dressed up Beej and wheeled me off at 9:20 am.

      At 10:02 am Mommy wasn't the only one crying. Carli, probably smiling, then spanked to make cry, made her grand appearance. They cleaned her up and put me back together, 30 min later I finally got to hold my baby girl. I would like to say that it just felt right, like I was made for this but it was SO weird! different maybe the better word? I was given the best job I've ever had that day. Through this pregnancy I have been weakened, dependent, and humbled. I would never give it back for the lessons and miracles that are now mine from this wonderful trial, adventure and miracle that Heavenly Father trusted and blessed me and my family with.




  Now to let you know why I had to have the ridiculous C section. During the pregnancy, early on, Carli the gymnast spun a web with all her jumping, flipping and spinning resulting in a very tight shoe lace knot in her cord. I know what your thinking, you've heard lots of stories where the cord is wrapped or knotted around the baby, but when I say shoe lace knot, i mean it is not touching the baby at all, it is in the cord and the cord alone. It was so tight that if I had gone vaginally my Carli layne would not have been here with us. She would have suffocated coming down through the birth canal. I'm ok with the C section now...

updates

Nothing has change since my last blog, I went to my doctors apt on Monday hoping to get my membranes stripped to speed things along but after the doctor checked my cervix she said things are still pretty tight down town, and that she wouldn't be able to even get in to strip the membranes. So slightly disappointed I set up an appointment for this Friday to see if I am dilated more by then. I am hoping that I am because I have an inducement date for Monday still and I probably wont keep it if I am not further along. My doctor will be leaving out of town for a week on my actual due date so she wants to get this baby out of me before she leaves. I told her that I was fine having someone else deliver the baby if I needed because I really don't want to be induced and then have things go wrong and have to have an emergency C section. When I had my gallbladder taken out I want to say I was super strong and wasn't afraid but when they wheeled me into the OR with the freezing temps, clinking metals and bright bright lights on me I freaked a little and I really don't want my labor to be like that. I know that really its in the lords hands but if I can avoid it I will. If I am not dilated more on Friday we will move the inducement date to next Wednesday, and Ill get checked on Monday. Thats about it for an update.
  I am getting more and more ready for this little girl to come, Amanda invited me to join her and her friend Melanie swimming at the legacy center on Monday, which helped a lot! I have been contracting hard since the doc appointment, then yesterday she and I went to the university mall and ate at PF Changs and walked the mall.  It was really fun. Today I got up off my lazy tush and make BJ orange rolls for breakfast, took a nap and then got right to work cleaning my apartment. I was hoping to keep the contractions going strong but its been pretty calm today which I HATE!! slash like the break. So torn! haha jk. Im going to jump in the shower and then wait for BJ to get home and then its off to Amanda's for dinner and Cards!! Today has been a good day. Heres to wishing for more good days and more contractions!

New News

Since my last blog I have changed a few things, I switched doctors. Crazy I know, at 36 weeks who does that?? BJ took me out for date night at Outback, before that I had been contracting the whole day and the day before so during dinner it didn't really catch my attention that i was contracting so often. But as the evening wore on they got more intense and more frequent. I mentioned it to BJ and he started to time them. I was contracting every 8 min. I didn't really feel like I was going into labor, but as I laoded my big bum into the truck I had one that took my breath away. I feel like i handle the contractions pretty well, they aren't comfortable and you can't really ignore them but I don't stop traffic every time I have one. The one I had in truck ripped through me, up through my back and in my belly. I had NEVER had one like that. So BJ and I decided to just go to the hospital and be on the safe side. So off we went and checked in and the nurse hooked me up to monitors. She asked me a bunch of questions and I decided to tell her about how hard of a time I was having with enjoying my pregnancy and that I had tried talking to my doctor about how hard it was for me every day to just get up and get ready, I explained that he didn't really acknowledge my admission and so I just dealt with it myself. The nurse was really great and suggested that I switch doctors. I really didn't want to switch doctors because I do not like hurting peoples feelings, believe it or not... and the doctor that the nurse was suggesting was a doctor that worked in the same office as doctor Dinger. The more we talked about it though BJ and I decided that it might just be the best thing.

   The nurse told me I was just having braxton hicks and that my cervix was still closed :/ I was super bummed. She sent in a social worker to talk with me to make sure I was suicidal (I felt so stupid!) after he decided I wasn't a hazard to myself and my child, we were set home. I felt slightly stupid for going to the hospital cause I didn't want to be one of those girls who at every bump I freaked out but Im really glad that I did because the next day I called and cancelled my apt with Doctor Dinger and set one up with Doctor Twelves, the following Monday I went to my apt and Loved her! She asked questions and listened and helped me figure out things that my other doctor just brushed off. I will now got an IUD, and start an anti depressant right after the birth just to be on the safe side. She had my blood drawn to see if I was low on anything. Two days later her nurse called me and let me know how everything turned out, I was very low on Vitamin D. I was so impressed that she had someone call me and let me know. my other doctor never called me or let me know how things were going. I had to have my sister make a list of things for me to ask him because I didn't know what I should know by now.  So I now have a new Doctor and I am really happy. She  also asked me if I would like to be induced. On Monday we set the date of February 7th. So if I am not dilated anymore we will wait but if I am then Carla will be coming then. :)

 I HATE pictures of me right now but I will post this for everyone else so they can feel better about yourselves.

       37 weeks 4 days.

Just a few things

    I wont give excuses for my lack of blogging, its just not my thing to do it all the time. I figure that I would keep everyone updated before the baby comes since I enjoy reading my cousin's blog and my sister's and a couple of friends. I am almost 36 weeks along, wahoo! I asked my doctor a few appts back if he thought I could go early and he replied sadly with a very solid, NO. :/ So it looks like February  11th is the soonest this mama will be going into labor. I also asked him how far after my due date he would let me go and he said a week, which i took as better news then two weeks.
    I've been slowly getting things ready for her here. We got our crib for free from BJ's boss who said he and his wife were done. SCORE!! They also gave us the mattress! So the crib is taken care of, CHECK!

    I found the bumper at IKEA for $12. I like that its just plain white so it will go along with any blanket I put in there. I still am trying to figure out how to put it on though, its really long??
    After we had the crib I started looking for a dresser on KSL. That was an interesting job. Most dressers are old dressers like ones from when I was a child, and they are still selling for around $40-$50. So last Saturday BJ took me to IKEA and said I could buy a dresser there. It was SOOO nice! cause we don't have a lot of money and he has been pushing us to save money by buying online. After much shopping and looking we decided to get this SUPER cute book shelf that we turned on its side. It was $69! and it can be used for other things after the baby doesn't need it. (that was my argument for BJ :) Anyway we came home and put it together and I had so much fun putting stuff away!!

                                   Those are my new burp rags Amanda made me. :) Super cute huh!

   As I put her little pants and tights away I started to get excited a little to play dress up, haha Its like grown up Barbies.. all the time! The worst thing I did though was pull out one of the newborn diapers hehehe seriously! take a looksee

                                                                      SOOOO little!!

   So all of the big things are taken care of, well except a recliner but hopefully that will come along some time soon. I have obtained things from my sister and Target as well like shampoo and baby wash, wash cloths, desitine, a breast pump, hair clips and flowers. My cousin, Steph bought her a pair of cowgirl boots which are perfect! Well I will post hopefully more one more time before I have her and tell you more about what we are up to but for now I have to go. BJ has to drive out to Tooele for work and I get to go with him since its after work hours and he probably wont get home till close to 9 or 10. I wouldn't get to see him all day if I didn't. :(
but I will leave you with my last baby/ old dinning room picture...