Suprise!

       So after much stalking I realized that some people have new post up almost everyday! I can't for the life of me thing of something entertaining to write about EVERY day but I can do my best. Today is a good day. I'm feeling well enough that I got out of the apartment by noon, where I then met up with my Hot hubby for lunch at the elegant McDonald.(Not my choice) We then went into the Walmart across the street to pick up drinks for my sister Melissa's bridal shower, which is tomorrow. I am currently at Amanda's house goofing off with her and her neighbor Melanie. Tonight BJ and I are babysitting for his sister Mandy from 9 to 7. Fun huh? yeah it was my list topper for a Friday night :)
  Today I am 26 weeks. 98 days to go! wahoo!! My sister is also throwing me a Baby shower as well. Super woman? I think so. My shower will be November 20th at her house. she made THE cutest invitations and is going through way more work then she needs to to put this on but I'm excited. Everyone has said to not buy anything till the shower but in all honesty I think I'm going to go crazy if I don't get at least somethings ready. I have not bought anything for my little girl and I'm going crazy. Its been kinda easy cause we are poor as dirt but I am not one who likes to put things like this off... homework, dishes, laundry sure but I don't even have a Binky or diapers. My mom did however buy me my first blanket. Its perfect too. I've been told that I am picking when it comes to styles for her but I just really don't want tacky pink filly foo foo stuff with jumping sheep and kitty cats rolling yarn around. The blanket was a raggedy Anne and Andy blanket in blues and reds. Don't get me wrong I like pink, in fact In high school while my parents were out of town I painted my room bright pink but I don't want too much.. and trust me there can be too much. :)
   The other day I had another doctors appointment that I didn't write about. It was right after BJ and I flew back into town from Boise. We got another ultrasound to double check somethings that they didn't get on the first one, We got to see the Labia pronounced in all her glory. This may sound weird but it was soo cute! We got a better picture of her cute feet, a profile and a cute one of her face. Things like that help to make me more excited about this. I am truly grateful for my health at this point, I know that I want more than one child so I will have to do thins all over again but for now I am just happy to get out of bed!
  BJ's job is going well, I know I haven't written much about BJ so here is a little bit of what he is up to. He took this job down in Utah in March. We moved down the beginning of April and he has been enjoying it ever since. The job here requires less manual work, which I think at first he missed getting his hands dirty but then as the days went by he realize how much more energy he had at the end of the day to hang out and play. He actually acts like a 29 year old instead of an 80 year old man ;) He is Jared's (his bro-n-law) assistant so whatever Jared can find for him to do BJ does it. Its a good job for now and its nice security. I'm not sure what BJ plans to do in the future, he had talked about going back to school so we'll see.
   BJ is really excited about baby girl. After work he comes home and hops on the bed with me and will talk to her or just watch sports center and rub my tummy waiting for her to kick at him. I never saw BJ as the type to do all of that so it makes me giggle when he does. When I was sick at the begging he would tell the baby to be nice to me. haha silly BJ.
anyway there is a little more in depth post about BJ and I and what we have been up to.

Skimming the Surface

I know that i haven't done a great job keeping up with my blog and i swore i'd do a better job of keeping up if i started one but i have to be honest I've avoided writing because I've had a hard time trying to find things to be happy about. I've decided i will write about everything that has gone on and put the happiest twist on it i can :)
I had my surgery, and it went well. very well, My stitches healed within the month and only one gave me trouble and even then None of them are as big as the picture I posted. The inside healing wasn't bad either, my abs were sore for about 5 days but after that I could get about pretty easily. It did not however fix my morning sickness. I will be 26 weeks tomorrow and I still have it. I threw up the peach Jello I made for BJ and I for movie night last night. I'll tell you on thing, I will not miss pregnancy!! It has been THE hardest physical experience I've EVER had to go through. It has however been the greatest blessing for BJ and I and relying on each other. Our relationship has grown threw every rough or tough time as we've learned to communicate and understand where the other person is at, because although I feel like I'd rather be dead and it's "so hard" for me, I have realized that it is equally as hard for BJ in other ways. He lives with the devil almost 24/7 ha and he doesn't snap back or tell me to suck it up, he just rubs my back and asks what he can do even though every time I say "nothing" and start crying. I'm ridiculous!
The week following the surgery BJ and I got to find out the sex of the baby. That would have been week 19. My parents came down from Idaho for the ultra sound. We could only have a small amount of people in the room because it was so small so besides BJ my parents also got to go in. My sister Amanda Cody and Cade had to wait outside, but I appreciated her being there for support and at the end I asked if we could switch out my dad for her so she could see too. So in the end everyone got to see.. Our little Girl. :) They had a hard time finding the her sex because she had her knees sealed shut :) thats my little lady. It has taken me awhile to feel connected to her and I felt really guilty about not caring about the sex or about really anything that had to do with her. I think I blamed how I felt on her and if it wasn't for her I would be up and about living life like I had before she came along. I since then have started to feel a little better and have been able to enjoy her more.
BJ and I went up to Nampa for Halloween. It was grandpa Bryce's 80th birthday so there was a lot of family hoopla going on and the weekend was a very nice getaway. We got to spend some time with my parents and I got to do my moms hair. The poor lady hasn't had her hair done since right before BJ and I got married in Feb. haha It was nice to actually be able to do hair again, I forgot how much I love what I do.
Next week BJ and I get to fly out to Portland for my family's Thanksgiving. Every year we go out to rock away beach to go crabbing and clamming and we rent out a restaurant on the port and have Thanksgiving. Its the best!! I really hope that I can enjoy myself and not be too sick. On the flight to Boise last weekend I threw up on the plane, not too fun. So anyway I'm getting excited for the up coming months! They will be busy and hopefully filled with loads of fun.
I will try to do better on keeping up with everything so that its more up to date and I can have more detail instead of just skimming the surface.

Gallbladder Drama

  Alrighty, I am now officially 18 weeks along in my pregnancy. I was hoping by now my morning sickness would be gone or only on occasion, but I haven't been able to tell with my other side effects. About two weeks ago I started having some gas problems, i chalked it up to not having regular bowl movements for most of this pregnancy. I was awaken the first time at about 2 in the morning with such intense pain under my rib cage that i woke up BJ and begged him to go to the store and get gas-x or some type of gas relief medicine. Poor BJ, off he went at three in the morning to walmart to buy me gas meds. the pain eventually subsided and I fell back to sleep an hour or so later.

Over the next couple of days I didn't have any problems except during the night. I thought it was gas so I would take an anti-acid and "tough it out", till last Friday night. The pain started at about 11:00 pm and i took my gas-x and braced myself to tough it out for the night. BJ turned off the light at about 12:15 am and fell asleep. I steadied my breathing and waited for the pain to subside. About an hour later the pain had not subsided but my tolerance had completely gone out the window, I was now whimpering and breathing a little harder but still trying to keep it down and not wake up BJ. But BJ finally woke up and asked if he could help, and that is such a tough question cause really there isn't anything he can do... but take a pillow and put me out of my misery. I just started to cry harder and said no. I decided to go out on the couch because by then my self wallow mode was on full throttle and I was now crying about everything bad thing that had ever happened to me in my entire life and I was sure God was punishing me. The pain wasn't so bad when i was crying that hard. but when i stopped to breath it would all come back ten fold. that pathetic scene lasted for about a half hour till BJ came out and laid on the couch with me and asked if I wanted to go to the hospital, which only made me cry harder?? don't ask why? I said no, I didn't want to go to the ER only to be told its just gas, I feel like I've already had so many other things go wrong with this pregnancy I didn't want to look like a big baby. So BJ went back into the room and started to look what it might be online. We read a couple things and decided to take Tylenol, but the more we read, the more I cried. BJ finally said he was taking me to the ER. He started dressing me haha cause he was so tired of listening to me cry about my pain.

  

  The drive to the Hospital took forever!!!! when we finally got there they signed us in and started to do test on me. They did all the normal test and asked what was wrong. I told them all my symptoms and that I was pregnant. They lead me to a room and told me they were going to take blood, hook an iv and check my baby's heart rate, then send me over to get an ultra sound on my abdomen. The nurse came in and was really nice. I know she was only being nice and making small talk, but she walked in and asked me if I had ever had an IV before... my first thought was.. nope.. never...but when your in a lot of pain sarcasm isn't first on hand.. so I nicely replied yes, I've had many especially over the last three months. Pick a vain any vain, they are all marked out. After they took the blood and hooked up the IV, another nurse came in to hear the heart beat. She globbed so much of the ultra sound goo on me it still makes me giggle thinking about it, when she found the heart beat it had dropped a little from the last time... so for any of you that believe boys have low heart rates.. my baby's heart rate was 140. :) But we'll find that out next week.

     Next they wheeled me into the ultra sound room where they had warm blankets and socks! The Lady wasn't super talkative, but then again it was about 4 in the morning by then. She took a look around and took pictures for about a half hour and then sent me back to my room. BJ and I waited about an hour till the doctor came back in and said I had two gallstones. lovely. I was almost relieved that it was something so BJ didn't thing I was making the pain up, but then I realized that I was stuck with the pain. He then went over how someone gets stones and the next course of action. He referred us to a surgeon at Alta View in sandy and gave me a few prescriptions.  By the time BJ and I left it was 5:30. Poor BJ had to be to work in less then two hours. We went home and I slept Most of the rest of the day. 

                                                     

   BJ got me an appointment with the surgeon on Tuesday. He went over all the pros and cons of having the surgery and what life will be like after the surgery if I go ahead with it. now I know your saying whats the problem here... well I'm pregnant remember..  I asked what the risks entailed and he said that the risks were actually higher for me not to have the surgery. In the first trimester they would have been concerned about the fetus growth and if the medications to put me under could/would effect the baby's health, and in the third trimester the risks are really high because if I have an attack it could possibly send me into labor causing a premature birth for my baby and all the side effects that go along with that. In the 2nd trimester I'm just growing the baby. So yes it is risky, any surgery is, Its will just be less of a risk for the baby at this point in the pregnancy. The doctor scheduled me for surgery this up coming Monday at 6:30 am. I'm very nervous but I am hoping that with this surgery I'll be able to start feeling a little better.

These are what the scars will look like :(  Wish me luck?

Weathering the Storm?

I am fourteen weeks as of this last Saturday, During week 7-10 I would look online to see when I would finally gain a reprieve from all of this and it said alot of womens morning sickness eased around week 12! I hung on to that through all the throwing up, constepation, doctor appt, and dizzy spells. Week 12 came and went with one day of no throw up. I wont lie, I definately got my hopes up till the next day. It was a 10+ throw up day (those are the worse cause you can't get it under control till you just fall asleep at the ebd of the day) Since week 12 my vomiting has been significantly lower which I am eternally grateful for. I am able to drink water and keep it down for the most part, eating is still tricky I have to pick and choose still which food i do and don't want to see coming back up later. BJ is really great with everything, every morning he leaves me things to snack on on our bed till I can get up and about enough to get something for myself. This includes an activia, gogurt, bottle of water for my pills, ritz crackers, and a smucker uncrustable. :) he cleans up after my rounds with the toliet weather I made it in or not, and he cleans up after alot of other unspeakables that happpen when pregnant. I have NO shame now.

Yesterday was another day of hardship. I can't help but feel down but im really trying to stay positive. I have lost alot of my clients, but its hard to explain to all of them, "hey I can't stop throwing up, I can't stand up with out throwning up, I can't eat with out throwing up, I can't not eat with out not wanting to throw up, I can't even take care of myself most days how am I suppose to drive 6 hours to nampa and work on my feet all day doing hair for a week?" Its tough and they don't understand but I guess I have to have faith that Heavenly Father knows more than I, and this is all for a reason.

We're planning on going to Nampa on th 28th for my cousin's reception with my sister Amanda and her husband, Chris. I really hope that by then I can stand on my own two feet for more than five min at a time and the queezy stomach business will all be gone. I really could use a good time.

BJ made me cake last night!

Summer?....what Summer?

At the end of May right before my trip up to Idaho to do hair, I had a feeling I may be pregnant so I took a pregnancy test and the only the first line showed up right away. I set it on the counter in the bathroom and when I came back to throw it away there was another line! I didn't know what to say, so I cried instead. BJ was really excited, but it took me a few days to get there.

Here is baby's first profile shot. Taken at 11 weeks. Due Date is February 11, 2011. Which just happens to be my dad's birthday.

Once I had a chance to kind of wrap my head around the fact that I am pregnant, I soon had a toilet bowl wrapped around my head. It completely knocked my knees out from under me. I haven't been able to even leave my bathroom since week 6. I have lost over 2o lbs and my sense of humor. So, if you have eaten anything in the last 7 weeks... I don't want to hear about it. Hopefully the end is near though because I desperately need a tan.

I have gone in to the Dr. every Monday and Friday for IV's to keep me hydrated and medicated. Amanda, Cody and Cade have been taking me.

He is a little cheeseball.

Showering, combing my hair, shaving my legs and waxing my eyebrows have definitely taken a backseat to, well just about everything. I have to wear deodorant now since I just sit in my own stench everyday. Poor BJ will be relieved when this is all over I am sure.


Week 12 = Kill me (or at least sedate me)

Wedding Reception

The Wedding picture are kind of scattered but I have yet to figure out how to move them around. So ladies and Gents.. in no specific order I give you...

THE WEDDING PICTURES!

Twalalala..

Mommy/Sunny Dance

Daddy/Daughter Dance

LOVE

The Toast..

After we cut the cake.

The Italian Sodas!! Such a HUGE hit!! I loved it, fit perfectly with the night!

Feeding of the cake..

Cutting of the cake...

My Family, Amanda & Chris with their two boys, Cody and Cade. Abby & Melissa, Mom & Dad.

Smootchies

BJ's Parents, Bryan & Jude. My Parents, Doug & Sue

The whole Millar Gang!! :)

My Center Pieces! I loved how they turned out, I bought everything, well almost everything at Ross! or the dollar store. Then returned them afterwards for almost full price. Ha how do you like that coupon Ladies??

such studs Eh?

Engagements!!

Doesn't BJ look soo cute?! I was really happy with how these turned out. I bought a shirt from Macy's that I thought would be perfect for my body type... the first thing out of Tyler's mouth that day... yeah this isn't going to work, you look pregnant. Great! thats just what a stressed, soon to be bride wants to hear at her engagement pictures. haha So luckily I'm extremely messy when it comes to my truck and I tend to live in it for about three or four months before I clean it, I went and searched my truck for something else to wear and came up with two other shirts.. Now let me explain something else. I am a size eight roughly on my good days, my kid sister is a size 2/3 oh her rough days. With the previous shirt I could wear a size three jean not do them up, wear a belt and suck into a girdle and no one would no other wise. well that is exactly what I did. :) Nice huh. so yeah don't be jealous of these pictures. I'm cheating. Back to my story. I found two long sleeve form fitting shirts one grey one white. probably the two worst colors for a person trying to hide... stuff. ;) But we are in the middle of no where and with no time to run and get a new shirt. so I'm rockin size three jeans. A girdle and the most horrible form fitting white t shirt. THANK GOODNESS FOR GIRDLES! But BJ just showed up wearing what I told him to wear. . .got to love a mans figure.

At the end of the day I still loved BJ and BJ still loved me.

But it is still nice that they turned out so fun ..